Have you ever had one of those days where your not happy but you aren't sad your just ok? Well, today was that day for me. Nothing great happened and nothing pissed me off. I felt "eh". I know that's not word but that's the only way I can describe it. But there are always moments unexpected moments to be exact that take you out of that funk. From a cute baby looking at you in awe to having a good laugh in drama class. So today was *sigh* day but I know where to go to let that *sigh* dissipate at least for a little while. :)

I wanted to live in Japan.

I have a few "best friends". I have two very best friends, one guy friend and one girl friend. Everyone knows that Beth is my chick best friend and I think that most people can guess why. But this story isn't about my girl best friend, it's about my boy best friend.
I used to date a boy named Mike. He was a sweetheart, but an obnoxious flirt and he sucked at helping people out with their problems because he was far too blunt sometimes. We fought, like most couples do, but we really cared about each other. Apparently he didn't care white as much as I did, or in the same way that I did. He broke up with me and I walked away broken-hearted, shit happens.
For a few months after the break up things were hostile. We got into more fights after our break up then we did in our relationship, but we could never just give up. We worked our asses off to talk to each other and to be friends and we eventually accomplished it.
And now, we love each other maybe more than we ever did. He truly became my best friend. Whenever I need someone to talk to I go to him and he never knows what to say and we get into huge fights because we both have a temper and know how to get under each other's skin. But… We always go running back, every time. I know that he tells me what I need to hear, even if I don't like it. And he knows that i love him and I can get a tad bit emotional. You've never seen two people more like a married couple.
The only problem with this scenario is that I really haven't loved any of my friends as much as I love Mike, I've never cared about a friend like this at all. And everyday I sit here and talk to him and pretend that everything is okay because at the end of the day I'd rather have him as my friend than nothing at all. And everyday he talks to me and hugs me and sends me poems, never knowing the truth. And I can't bring myself to tell him, I can barely admit it to myself.

My family is extremely diverse - to the point where, if you were walking by, you would probably mistake it for a group of strangers congregating in the park, rather than a family picnic. These are my cousins Sydney and Cameron, who, despite our physical differences, we are related.

Can I live in your pocket? I want you to tote me around, unseen. You can pull me out whenever you need me. I'll be there to help you if you get into trouble or comfort you when you're sad. You can tell me all of your secrets because you know I won't judge you. When you're out with your friends I can just curl up in a ball and fall asleep safely at your side. You don't need to give me attention all day every day, I just need you to make me feel special every once in a while. Just feed me and take good care of me and I'll always be your best friend.  

The next best thing after acceptance letters are financial aid packages.

You've been dismissed from my life

So today I had the pleasure to go to FACTs Middle School in Chinatown. As soon as I walked in the door, I felt like I was in the middle school version of SLA. It was just so much creativity, and the kids really seemed to love the school. The teachers gave off a family vibe and that they really loved the school just like SLA. When I spoke to some of the teachers they were extremely supportive, and were very welcoming to me. They are very immersed in culture. All the kids even elementary school are learning Mandarin, which is so awesome! I really wished I would have gone to a school like FACTs for middle school, because it was so amazing. Even though, by the end of the meeting I realized I was going to have about a million more things to do, I felt like I would really enjoy working with the staff and kids.

One thing that I wish I could change, just to see my dad waving at a basketball game. Just to see my dad standing when they say my name. Walk me to the locker room and say, "son good game!"