We have bunk beds now but i can't use said bunk beds because i'm paranoid said bunk bed is going to fall on me and crush me.... maybe if i just use the top bunk it will be fine.

maybe i should talk about my plans for tonight.

im going downstairs to make my honey scrub and my lemon concoction .
i might just stop by my brothers room to pull the blanket off of him.
im going to most likely take off my clothes and pose in the mirror before i get in the shower too.
you can already tell what i wanna be when i grow up ;)
i might take a shower for about 15 minutes, maybe 20 .
sing a couple love songs until my mother tells me to " shut  that monkey noise up"
take out my  clothes for the next day which will end up destroying the room i cleaned for maybe 2 hours yesterday.

sigh , a wild night ahead of me .
off to complete it .

My life is a song stuck on repeat,
It is a summer day gone cold,
It is a painting of a waterfall,
Damaged by a storm.

It is a beautiful disaster,
A train wreck,
But a masterpiece.

It is a fire hidden by trees,
A broken mirror,
A mirage of colors,
A rain of glitter.

Metamorphic.

today i went bowling with my mother, 2 brothers and sister.
it was fun .... surprisingly.  I was in the middle of cleaning my room when my mom came in the house and said that we were going somewhere . Initially I rolled my eyes. I assumed she was taking us to one of those annoying museums again. However ( :D ) she was taking us somewhere else.  She said SKATING AND BOWLING .

We ended up leaving really late because my dad decided instead of driving us there , he wanted to wash clothes and  because my mom doesn't have a license we had to use septa and our feet .

Before we arrived to our destination we stopped at 7 eleven . And in my opinion WaWa is wayyyy better . I didnt know this at first though . We got in the store and she told us we could get anything we wanted  . I mean to some children this is no big deal , but to me it was . We hardly ever get to get ANYTHING we want.  I got two 11/8 big beef hotdogs ,  a big bag of ruffles, and a arizona icetea.  This was so ideal :)

By the time we arrived the skating place was closed but luckily the bowling alley was still open. The best thing about bowling with my mother is that she pays you for every pin you knock down . Every pin is worth 5 cents ,  every spare is worth 25 cents, and every strike is a 1 dollar. Now it may seem like a little bit , but as the game goes on  I can personally say I feel rich .
I ended up with 4.25  with no strikes and a couple of spares . I also beat my 3 year old sister , 5 year old brother and my 12 year old too.  I was beyond accomplished.

After that , she took my older brother and I to ritas . I ordered vanilla custard on a cone. This day was nice , very beautiful .

But when i came home i had to finish cleaning my room and doing other things that I was interrupted for .  and now my mom is getting on my nerves asking me to take my clothes out for church when she knows ill change my mind in the morning. shes asking me to find bathroom mats while im trying to write this blog . and to top it off i went in the bathroom and she didnt flush . now Im going to reread what I wrote so I can lose the attitude i have with her right now and be grateful for the day I spent with her.

Today I went to Cherry Hill mall with Eric.  I ended up going to Aerie, which is my absolute most favorite store, ever.  I told myself that I would only spend like, $20.  But that idea completely changed once I walked in to that store.  I rushed to the nearest ATM to take out $40.  So I basically spent my entire paycheck on some wonderful new clothes.  Although I am now broke until next Friday, at least I got some new shirts and undies! :D

I watched myself walk through the past,

I looked down every road and path.

And I lost some hope along the way.

But everything fell into place.

I dreamt I was running far ahead,

Escaping an unfamiliar space,

Giving myself some time to breathe,

And everything fell into place.

I am not who you think I am,

I am more than that, more than that.

I am not who you think I am,

I am more than that, more than that.

So very far from the ordinary,

Nothing less than extraordinary,

I am not who you think I am,

I am more than that, more than that.

 

I built up a wall around my soul,

Kept out all of the demons I don’t know.

Confided in only just a face.

But everything fell into place.

 

I gave up all my pain and fear,

Followed the signs that lead me here.

And when I woke up once again,

Everything fell into place.

 

I am not who you think I am,

I am more than that, more than that.

I am not who you think I am,

I am more than that, more than that.

So very far from the ordinary,

Nothing less than extraordinary,

I am not who you think I am,

I am more than that, more than that.

 

I have all I could ever want now.

I have all I could ever imagine now.

Four years fade so fast,

But in the end,

It’s all worth it.

 

I am not who you think I am,

I am more than that, more than that.

I am not who you think I am,

I am more than that, more than that.

So very far from the ordinary,

Nothing less than extraordinary,

I am not who you think I am,

I am more than that, more than that.

 

You know what I rediscovered? Coloring books. They are awesome. All my childhood fun has come rushing back to me. I got two coloring books for my birthday along with a pack of colored pencils. I was home last night coloring in my fairy coloring book and was having a blast. I get such a fulfillment from coloring inside the lines. It's great now because I can easily stay within the lines, but when I was younger it was hard for me to meet this fulfillment because I was quite uncoordinated with coloring (like many kids are).