you would figure after doing good on a MATH test ,  getting to school early, catching up on all of your missing assignments  you would feel great about the day
but then i go to view my grades and they read

49-math
10- urban ecology
70- drama
who knows what - digvid
who knows what- 21st century economics
64-chase

its official , i hate my life.

I can’t believe we have only two more months left until school is over. I can’t wait because I’ll finally be able to take a long break and won’t have to worry about waking up early in the morning and most of all we wont have to catch three things just to get to school every morning. I’m also excited for starting my new life in college.

 

Prom is a stressful thing, the more you think about the things that you don't have in order, the more the stress piles on. I don't have a dress, many in mind, but none that I have actually went to go get fitted in. One dress its  a Chiffon Grecian Dress in Ice Pink. it looks really nice and I really have my mind set on that one.

Other than not having a prom dress, I don't have a date either. I swear at this point , I will take ANYBODY, who is tall, brown skin, and has a nice smile, oh and he has to have a nice award winning personality and all that. But that is hectic, I'm still waiting for Mr. MIles to update my math grade because my mom is waiting on that to start getting things together. Prom is May 20th, its damn near April now, I hate doing anything last minute.

 On top of not having a dress, or a date, i have no type of transportation. I really despise my mom for her "cheap" ways.  I hope she plan to spend well into the hundreds for my prom because I want to be nice. I wanna get picked up in a nice car and get seen off by family and friends and just have a wonderful night.  I be damned If I get dropped of in the dirty ass soccer mom van she keep joking with smh.

 All in all, I feel like getting prom together is going to be a disaster. i don't even have after prom plans. fml

For the past month I've just been drained of energy. I don't know why. It sucks. I'll be sitting in school feeling fine and then all of a sudden a powerful force of sleep overcomes me. I know it's not from my sleeping habits, since everyday I come home and go to bed at 7 or 8.  I've actually been getting the greatest sleep of my life but yet I get hit with drowsiness in the middle of the day. First, my body feels physically exhausted and all I want to do is sleep and sometimes I doze off in class; which I hate doing because it's so disrespectful, but I really can't stay awake. Now, if don't go to sleep and be disrespectful in class I become very irritable and I get annoyed at everything, so either way I'm a bitch by either sleeping in class or being irritable if I stay awake. I hate it. It's frustrating not to know why I get so tired like this too. I hope it stops.

So today I'm feeling really good for some reason.
 This is a pleasant change from the depression I had sunk in all week. I'm smiling more and laughing and actually living life without stress, or just not thinking about the things that stress me out.  All week I have been debating on letting somebody go out of my life, who just cause me extra stress at times, or keep stringing them along, just to blatantly cut them off the day I go to college. Right now I think If i let go, It will blow up in my face before I get to college, but if I wait, it can be over and done with.
 I could always make up a lie as to why I was letting them lose, but I really don't feel like all the extra drama. Ho could you tell someone to leave you alone because they cause you too much stress and your tired of them? There is no nice way to say that.  but to a person who tells you the they can't live without you, I don't want any foul repercussions to leave anybody in a bad mood.

 Well anyway, I go a 94 on my math benchmark, Mr. Miles said, It was the best that he has graded so far. That made me smile  alot.  SO today is going good like I said before, I don't even mind that I have to file papers for Ms. Diane to make up for Saturday detention.

in all of my classes.
I am so happy. I hope I have more A's then B's, but math is my main focus. I really, really want a B.

I'm going to Mr. Baird's class now.
Wish me luck.
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I am having some slight difficulty with this last portion of the English benchmark.  I tried to set up a new twitter account but I could not get the "create an account" page to load.  So then I went online and researched some twitter-like sites that I could possibly use in school.  I ended up finding this site called "GupShup" which is basically the same thing as Twitter, but it is based in India.  My only issue is going to be finding people to follow me on the website.

So if you could, please follow me on GupShup and join the group "forgetmeforget".

I am an anonymous user, by the way.

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Well yesterday I realized during school that it was my fathers birthday. Afterschool before work I had to scramble to get him something nice for his birthday. Bought him some cheap little trinkets and then it was time for me to get to work. Work is the same as usual, boring and tedious as usual. Its a weird combination really... After work I have to do errands for my mom, picking up some lady all the way in New Jersey and then coming back home with her and a hour later dropping her off again back at her house. My whole evening was gone, it was around 11pm and I just had to wash up and get cozy in bed. Then I realized I had so much homework to do, however it was just not possible to do when you can barely keep your eyes open.